summer depressive episode hits hard
i feel like i only write here to... complain... which is not inherently false but, oh well! i do write when i have a lot in my mind, and i usually do have a lot in my mind, but you know – i forget this site exists. i forget there's a piece of me here. so, hi! how's your summer been? mine hasn't been good, and i feel like it's about to get worse, in a way. you know when you have a really bad feeling about something? yeah, that's kinda me right now. it's not a bad feeling about other people or like something happening, it's a bad feeling about how my mental health is going to decline despite me trying to keep up with life in general. tonight i feel atrocious. i just. i always try my best and i still feel like i have to walk on my toes around other people. i feel like i can't even speak up for myself and what truly bothers me – people always make me feel like they make me out to be the villain. it's the classic cliché with nobody understands me, and i ...