about me

hi, hello, i'm back. obviously, since i cannot shut my mouth. nor make my fingers stop typing. 

i've been thinking about writing here all day - and i've got some ideas of what i could write, but hey, also, i will go with the flow and just write hella things that go through my fucking head. i gotta store these somewhere. 

i thought it would be pretty... cute if i talked about myself a bit. if someone's ever reading this, then maybe they're interested in hearing some things about myself. 

okay, so, i'll start by saying that i've chosen the nickname isa to go by on this blog - and it's not my real name, but i'd rather say it's a nickname of a nickname, something really complicated, you know, but something that makes me feel comfortable while i'm writing down here. i'm a student in my 20s... i think that much you've gathered already. i'm genderfluid and i gotta say i am comfortable with any and all pronouns, so whatever people want to call me, i'm all there for it. i'm in kind of a sexuality crisis right now, but i'll probably do a separate post about it (i've had a really meaningful conversation today about sexuality and gods, i felt validated). i should probably go unlabeled since i'm very, very, very fucking confused, but for the record, i'm labelling myself as a lesbian. i'm an aquarius, and i don't know if that should mean something, but i'm saying it because why not? i love my zodiac sign. 

i'm interested in a hella lot of things, i have a lot of interests - some of them are popular, and then some of them are fucking niche, but that's alright. i'm always open to talk about them and i'll probably run my mouth so bad about them, because let's be honest, who doesn't love writing about what they like until their fingers are sore from how passionate they've been?

just me?

hard to believe.

i love all sorts of music. and i'm not that type of person that can, like, be tested for it - because you know the tiktok trend that goes like, testing the person who says they listen to anything, blah blah blah. no, sir, i DO listen to anything. my main playlist is like 2000 or so songs long (that's precisely 113 hours and some minutes i do not remember), and i'm very proud of it, i must say. oh, and let's not forget about my fucking 230 or so playlists. so yeah, whenever one wants to recommend me music, i'm very very open to it. and i also jump at any and all opportunities to show off my music. i'm very passionate about it. i would have been even more passionate if i was a musician.

today i thought about how fun it would have been if i was a songwriter.

i love cats. i love them so much, it's unreal. and it's funny. when i was little, i used to be so fucking scared of them. can you believe it? a child who was scared of cats when they didn't even do anything to her. i don't know if i should laugh or cry at the thought of it, but i vividly remember that my babysitter had to put the cat in another room whenever i was staying over at hers because i was way too scared of the poor little baby.

right now, i'm kind of in a reading block and writing block both at the same time and i'm trying to get out of them. both at the same time. i'd say i'm not doing such a bad job, but i could do better. i'm writing in my free time (when i get the inspiration) and i've been trying to outline a fantasy book i had in mind for... uh, what, three years now? no, i think it's four. yeah, maybe four years. i'm also reading two books at the moment, one for my classes (i should read way more for my classes) which i actually really like and the other one that i just started tonight (i've got way more books that i started and never finished in my tbr right now and i'm pretty ashamed, so i'm trying to take them one by one). 

oh, i'm also really passionate about learning languages. i know, like, 3 languages at the moment - my native one, english, and french (which after 8 years of learning it, i shamefully can say that i understand but i cannot speak it for the life of me, it's like my brain fucking blacks out whenever it comes to me like actually speaking it). i'm learning spanish, which is really great. REALLY great. i've always thought i was 'meant' to speak spanish because all the paths in my life just lead to me having some sort of connection to spanish. i've wanted to learn korean for like 9 years, and i never got around it - i'm still very passionate about it, but something i'll speak about later got in my way and now... i just don't want to hear about korean for some fucking long time. 

i'm trying to find something else to say about myself, but i kind of came to a dead end if i can call it that. i think i'll just have to abruptly end all of this here, and just dive into other things in other nights, and i think everything will flow smoothly then. 

but for now, that's me. i hope you'll like me just as i am.